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| Yesterday i had a great time celebratin xmas & ma 21st b-day w/ ma dearest frdz!!! I was so happi 2 c sooo many faces @ the same time yesterday! Altho i do c sum of them a lot but it's still wonderful 2 c every1 @ the same time! I hope every1 had fun last nite. I cant believe i'll be 21 soon... grrr time flies n it's soooo scary... Even thou i'm diz old already but i havent accomplished nethin in ma life, i wonder wut's dere 4 me 2 accomplish... only God noes. Thank you AMY+JAZ+CAROL+UNCLE 4 the b-day presents!!! I was realli touched by u guys!!! n thank everyone else 4 comin 2 ma party!!! Ma hse was warmed by u guys!!! Merry Christmas everyone!!! | | |
| Long time no c, xanga. Cant believe i used 2 write a lot of entries... n i put 2 much details in them. Exam period. I jus finish 2 exams diz week, dont think i did 2 well, but i tried ma best. Ma best meanin dat i actually put maself in the lib n studied 4 more than 8 hrs each day... i guess i wasnt bein effective. Finally got a bad cold yesterday, coz of the lack of sleep n healthy meals. Now i wish i was bak @ home, doin nth n eatin good meal everyday. I dunno y no matter how hard i try i still do bad. But i still believe i should try hard everytime. Now i hav 3 more exams ahead of me, i should realli study hard, coz i realli wanna stay in diz program n graduate from skool next yr. 1 more yr, i'm almost done, i cant give-up rite now. Read sum frdz' entries diz days, brought bak a lot of memories. Now i recall how thins were, we were all anxious about our future, pissed off @ certain thins, shared laughable moments. But now they all hav happi-endins. I wonder if i'll hav a happi-endin. I wonder if i ever look bak @ diz entry in the future, would i smile or simply feel nth @ all. Feel realli depressed diz days, coz of the exams, ma sickness, n stuff. I thought i've already 4gotten about ma failures, but realli i cant... memories jus suddenly came bak 2 me all @ once. Now i feel defeated coz i still cant get over them. I tried 2 encourage maself 2 move 4ward but it's realli hard 4 me. I hope thins will work out themselves, but realli its the other way around, i need 2 work doz thins out. Now i hav sum plans 4 Christmas and future, hope i will act accordin 2 ma plan. I believe in miracles n i hope they'll happen 2 me!!! | | |
| Yes 2day is Aug 12th... a month from Jul 13th... well a month ago i was dreamin about gettin into the firm of ma dream - PwC... a month later, i'm awaken by diz email from Brock's co-op office.
I was expectin a good news, but wen i saw another name in the email, i crushed...
Wut can i say... i guess i'm not good enough 4 PwC... they want da best n da brightest... guess i'm not doz excellent ppl... i cried helplessly, but dat's meant 2 be... althou i hav been tellin God i cant accept diz result, i cant handle diz pain in my chest, but God wants me 2 learn diz lesson.
Smith Nixon & Co. LLP... i'm surprised they accepted me. Coz after their interview i thought i totally blew it... they asked me so many weird questions n i bsed so many of them. I was so embarrassed n i was tellin maself it's good i wont c them nemore. But now, i guess it's destiny, i hav 2 face them 4 da next 4 yrs at least. Hopefully i can climb da ladder by maself n get into 1 of the big fours.
It's ironic how i thought i left a good impression 2 PwC n horrible 1 2 Smith Nixon, da result turned out 2 be totally different. Well PwC is every1's dream, i guess dere r a lot of excellent students out dere waitin 4 diz opportunity. I was lucky enough 2 be chosen by them 4 an interview. Coz compared 2 the other candidates, i dont think i had ne absolute advantages... dat interview made me more confident but @ da same time, i became greedy n i was expectin so much.
Sometimes i would laugh @ maself how ma life is so miserable. I heard a lot of successful stories from ppl around ma age. How they get chosen 4 diz, how they stood out in da crowd n stuff... i guess i cant be a winner... no matter how hard i tried dere's alwayz sumbody beta than me out dere... so sad but sumtimes life is like diz.
Ma mom said i'm realli negative... but facin all diz thins in life, i cant be dat positive... i want 2 blame sum1, but i only hav maself 2 blame. Y didnt i try ma best in skool? If i had awesome marks den dere wouldnt be ne probs... grrr!!!
Ok i should stop all diz bs here... i'll try ma best next yr!!! | | |
| Today is unlike ne other day, today is a special day!
Mon i received a phone call from brock's co-op office, da director told me PricewaterhouseCoopers wants an interview w/ me. So they told me the add n set time w/ me. After i hung up da phone i couldnt stop maself from jumpin n screamin... yea PwC is 1 of da "big four" CA firms n it's 1 of ma fave CA firms. I couldnt believe i'm selected by them... it's unbelievable coz i never new they wanted 2 c me...
Finally today's da day. I woke up realli early, got on subway 2 King station. On da way i kept practicin 4 the interview, coz i was super nervous about it. I'm a shy person n i dont wanna ruin diz opportunity... diz is sth i hav never expected... Finally i got 2 King... but i couldnt find da exit 4 "King St. West", so i jus got on sum random place n walked 2 wherever... finally i saw a policeman n asked him 4 directions. So den i found King st. West! WOW~~~ diz is definitely sumwhere i wanna be! Da entire street is surrounded by huge glass-window buildin! They look like giants~ Most ppl on da street r wearin business attiares, i felt like 1 of them coz i was wearin ma suit n dress pants! It took me sum time 2 find da buildin! WOW~~~ i felt so different as i entered da lobby... diz place feels like Wall St. in da States... lol~~~ So i saw an elevator n jus rushed in... but i couldnt find da "30" button... finally i asked diz gentleman behind me n he said i took da wrong elevator... man... after i returned 2 lobby i realized wut he meant. Diz buildin has 60 floors, n it has 3 types of elevators... so i finally found da elevator from 20th floor 2 39th floor~~~ phew... prob solved!
Bing! I hav reached da 30th floor! As i walked out of da elevator, i saw da name "PricewaterhouseCoopers"! They occupied the entire floor. So i went 2 da reception desk n asked 4 ma interviewer. While waitin 4 her, i took a seat. Lookin out of da glass window, da view is so perfect! Awww~~~ diz is da place i wanna be! Man i feel so high-class here~~~ Finally ma interviewer Michelle came, she walked me 2 da boardrm. It was empty inside! I was expectin more than 4 ppl in dere... Coz i heard b4 diz big firms would hav sum ppl askin u questions, sum ppl takin notes n stuff. I was surprised by diz emptiness. She gave me a PwC mug! (WOOHOO!!!) n a folder full of goodies! So we started da interview. It was nice n frdly. She didnt ask ne tough questions but it was realli like a conv. Time flies~ 40mins of interview wasnt long!
Yea... i'm so excited n worried rite now. Because ma mom told me b4, even if they were frdly 2 u n showed they want u 2 work 4 them, it's still unsure if they would realli hire u. So i hav 2 wait 4 a week or so 2 hear da result from them. But honestly PwC is sumwhere i wanna be in da future, i hope i can get diz job. I'm glad i tried ma best 4 da interview! No matter wut da result will be, i hav improved a lot n i'm proud maself! | | |
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